August 29, 2012

On Being "Single" (Again)

Chin and I have been living apart for a total of 5 days now.
Yep, five days and I've turned into a psycho who hates everyone who holds hands with their spouse on campus... Or tweets about how much they love their "hubby" (oh wait I already hated that). 
It's funny how being alone, even for a short period of time, makes you resort to your old single habits so quickly. 
For example: 
+I do not sleep. I mean I do, but for the life of me I can NOT motivate myself to power down and go to bed at a decent hour. I've already noticed my lack of sleep taking a toll on me, and have no idea how I pulled all-nighters and stayed out till 4 a.m. freshman year.
+I am a royal mess. I've never been an especially tidy person (clean and hygienic, but not tidy by any means), but having a husband living with me helped me keep our apartment tidy since Chin is all about tidy. But now, my bed looks like a lion slept in it, my jewelry is sprawled across my dresser, and you'd think my shoes had attacked my room and left no prisoners. 

On a brighter note, even though I miss Chin so much I can barely see straight, some good things have come from being "single" again that I hope to continue when Chin and I reunite in December.
+My scripture study has improved immensely. It sounds strange, since Chin has only boosted my love for our particular religion since we've been married, but for some reason, my study of the scriptures (I'm currently re-reading the New Testament) was struggling. I've had a lot of time to myself being husband-less and I've really been trying to focus on boosting my spirituality. 
+Eating healthy is easy and do-able. I don't blame Chin for my bad eating habits in the past, because for the most part Chin is a VERY healthy eater (I'm always the one begging for sweets). But, having my own eating agenda and grocery list has made it a lot easier to choose healthy options. Plus, trying to feed a man who eats enough for 10 men doesn't help portion control, so now I'm eating less too.

So overall, I'm not dead yet. I'm trying to have a positive attitude and am counting down the days until I get to see Chin for a long weekend at the end of September.

Also, I chopped off all my hair. That was fun.


Mrs. Bowden said...

You poor thing! I can't imagine how hard that would be- you can do it!

Jillian said...

aww it is so hard when your heart is missing it's other half.

On a positive note, your hair looks awesome!

Laura said...

You look lovely! And I feel you on the portion thing. These boys eat so much, and I find myself eating almost as much as he does sometimes! But then we got smaller plates and that helps. He can go back for seconds. :)

You can do it!

Shelby Clark said...

Hayley! I am loving your hair! Seriously so pretty and classy! Also, you are amazing! I love your attitude and outlook on being separated from Chin! Also, the next time I am in Provo let's play! I can leave Thane for a bit and be a single girl with you! ;) Good luck with the start of your semester!

Elaine said...

I've been reading your blog since the very beginning, and really enjoy it. I don't know how I came across it, but I went to the same high school as you, only a couple years before you. I just wanted to pipe in and say how strong you are (even if you have less-strong moments) for being so far away from your husband! Keep it up and time will fly and it'll all be worth it (advice you've probably heard over and over by now).

(ps. Love the hair cut!)

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