This past weekend, Chin was whisked away to a medical school interview at the University of Kentucky.
And while I was really happy that he had the opportunity to go, it was the first time that we had spent more than 12 or so hours apart in more than a year.
I learned a few things while he was gone.
The first, was that I don't know how I thought it would be doable to be apart next fall semester. If you haven't been reading our blog for too long, you might not know that Chin goes (hopefully) to med school in August, and I'll still have one more semester at BYU- so I'll be in Provo no matter what.
I was freaked out about it for quite a while, but for the past six months or so, I haven't been worrying about it. I know Heavenly Father will make it work somehow, and we love each other enough that four months apart will be tough but doable.
Except I realized this weekend that I am completely incompetent without Chin. I never realized how much I need him in my life until he was gone for a few days. That's really really sad, because I never want to under-appreciate him and I hope that I don't. I just don't think I realized how much we both rely on each other before.
I was pretty independent before I got married. I was worried that people around me would think that I needed a man to do things for me, so I over-compensated by trying to do everything on my own.
Now though, I am a complete mushy baby by myself. I am completely dependent on Chin, but I think in a good way. He's my husband and we lean on each other for help and support, and he is incredible in more ways than I thought possible.
So Chin, thanks for making one big fat mess when you're away. And most importantly, never go away again, because it's just no fun without you here.
I also learned that I bake way too much:
(recipe coming for this beauty tomorrow)
and I learned that I have really awesome friends who make lace garland and chat for two hours at Cafe Rio with me. But I already knew they were awesome. So just a reminder then.
how was your weekend?